I'm Not Sure Why.

From outside my body.
They saw me, dazzling in distress.

I feel my breaths deepen,
as if I am twirling in agony.

My arms are wrapping around my
cold body, and tightening as they grasp me.

I let out the air my lungs captured,
and contained.

As I exhale it is almost as if a lid flew off
of a container.

I scream in terror, and they stare.
Only pondering what is wrong with my small body.

As they watch I wonder too.
I know that delivery bell shut me down.

Yet a cold wet tear swims down my face,
it is followed by more and more showers.

Still in aisle nine, where I was just smiling
picking out some pasta sauce.

Laughing with my lover,
and daughter.

Enjoying this sweet time,
we are able to joke and laugh.

Where we are able to forget,
and live in the moment.

I uncover my knotted arms tight as a rope,
only to hide my tears that have salted into my mouth.

Carefree I am lost.
My soul is stolen.

There is no key to unlock this misery.
No cure, and nothing to subside it.

The pain my body feels is because of you.
You took more then I ever imagined.

One night was all it took,
to take away my everyday.

In those moments I am not sure why.
Not sure why I am like this.